This thing has to be postmarked in three days. THREE DAYS. I’ve been making progress — more progress in the last week than I made in 6 months — and I still have a bit to go. 9 pages, I believe.
My biggest issues with this project (or any creative project) are fear, poor planning, and choice of medium/mediums/media. When I’m making something for someone else, terror strikes and I feel paralyzed. If it’s for me, then I don’t care and somehow it turns out well. Anything else, though, and I feel incompetent. Smooth lines become jagged from a shaky hand, choosing a color palette is nerve wracking, subject matter–forget about it.
However, in the past few days, I discovered a workable theme, a palette, and — most important — the medium! The pages of the sketchbook are not typical heavyweight paper; they have their limit. In the past, I’ve attempted marker (which bled through) colored pencil becomes time consuming depending on how it’s used (I like to make it saturated and blend blend blend), pastel gets all over the place, and paint wrinkles the pages too much. I have a tin of Derwent Inktense pencils. I use them once in a while for various things, but didn’t use them on the sketchbook until recently. HOLY HELL! They’re magical!
Granted, I’m only using a variety of reds, but still. The paper doesn’t buckle, the color is saturated, but isn’t bleeding through, and adding water gives my hand a much-needed break from the blending of colored pencils.
So, with three days left, I’m pretty sure I can swing it. Also, sorry for the bad photo!
Every year I do the Sketchbook Project offered by the Art House Co-Op in Brooklyn, NY. And every year I don’t send a damn thing in. Well, last year I did. I think. It’s just that I get so excited about it and then completely drop the ball because of a variety of factors: fear, fear of being judged, fear of…being judged. And fear. Of being judged.
It (me) = Total Wuss.
I think that’s what it is. Plus, I feel like I have absolutely zilch to offer. Who wants to see drawings of dismembered humans whispering secrets to other, naked, humans surrounded by red ribbons? No one, that’s who. I haven’t drawn that yet, but it’s in the works.
Until then, here is an in-progress picture (self-portrait type thing) of me whispering to me.
From November 1st to November 3rd Raleigh’s convention center hosted the World of Art Showcase, sponsored by our favorite art store, Jerry’s Artarama. In trying to think of how to describe the event, all I can hear in my head is “Wow”. That’s about all I’ve been able to express about it during and after. It was so awesome that it turned me stupid.
I was initially excited to go, then I hit a couple weeks where my insecurities about my own art and my own life made me rethink my excitement and ask myself “Why even bother?”. I told Jer, the husband, that I didn’t buy tickets (that I had intended to buy weeks prior) and after a few days’ worth of conversation and his pushing, I bought the tickets and we went.
As you may know from previous posts, he doesn’t consider himself an “art guy”. Frankly, the art world freaks him out so much so that he thinks of the “art world” as an actual parallel universe that exists in quotations where he would be an alien lost in a group of artists that wear scarves year round, speak only in color, and eat with palette knives. I’m assuming this is what goes through his head, anyway, as any mention of him being around people that do art causes his eyes to widen and his pulse becomes clearly visible in his temples. Over the course of those 3 days, however, he learned that these people are humans who not only do art, but they also like pizza, action figures, and enjoy dropping f-bombs when appropriate. This was good for him.
It was great for me, too. I was exposed to work that I don’t think I ever would have otherwise been exposed to if not for this event. And as you may know from my history, there are still days where I feel like opening my front door will bring about death and destruction for all of mankind, however I did make it out of the front door, drove all the way into the city for those 3 days, and I talked to people. ‘Sup. I kind of feel like I deserve to shout-whisper a “Fuck yeah!” and perhaps shoot my fist into the air. Only a few times did I have issues with dissociation, so that was pretty sweet too. Yeah therapy! WOO!
Within the next couple of days I’m going to get my photos together (I didn’t take nearly enough and am disappointed with myself about that) and get them on here. Until then, here’s some pizza (it was yum).
I can’t remember how long it’s been since I put work in my Etsy shop, but I know it’s been a looooong time. It’s also been a long time since I updated this blog!
At the moment, there are only 4 ACEOs in my Etsy shop. Halloween themed ones because, well, Halloween is awesome (as if I have to tell you that)! It’s the best excuse to dress up as someone else or dress up as a sluttier version of yourself! Everybody wins!
Here is an Owl.
I actually started this drawing for I.F.’s theme “Robot”, but I missed the boat. I think it works for both themes. Freshly inked, here it is:
Courtesy of Jerry’s Artarama of Raleigh, NC.
For those that follow, you know how difficult it can be for me to step outside my front door. I felt that if I didn’t take this opportunity that was provided by both Jerry’s Artarama and the North Carolina Museum of Art, I would forever regret it. So, with severely trembling limbs, I went. It was fantastic.
I’ve been a member of the NCMA for a few months and haven’t even gone, until today. I must do it more often! It’s my hope that things like this continue to be available. Brilliant!
Scarlet dreams of scarlet seas she finds on the sidewalk during an episode. Satin protects her the way Satan couldn’t.
Sweet jayzus, it’s been a long time since my eyes graced the theme for Illustration Friday. This week the topic is “Eye Glasses”. I feel that this illustration needs a story, so I’m going to tell you one.
When I was a little It, I developed a passionate madness for a gorgeous, gorgeous man loved by billions and billions of other people. He was the ideal man for me. A perfect face, perfect profile, intelligent, funny, glorious nose and bottom lip. Who was he? You guessed it, it was Rick Moranis! Rick Moranis is still one of the most beautiful men I’ve ever seen so it only made sense to attempt to sketch him for this week’s Illustration Friday theme. When I think of glasses, I think of the beautiful Rick Moranis. And Drew Carey. Drew Carey was another massive crush of mine that (also) still hasn’t fully gone away.
This, though…this is about Rick Moranis. I want to say (want) that the sketch looks kind of like him, but that might be the Riesling talking. I absolutely can not draw real things – only the craziness in my brains. Forgive me! Also forgive me for the extra lines. Since I’m not fully unpacked, I have no erasers!! This makes as much sense to you as it does to me…unless it makes sense to you, then…no. No erasers! Gah!
Alright, so I have bits of my work area set up and I even started working on doing something with 2 corkboard bulletin things I’ve had for…7 years (“Hello, Hoarders? This is It. We should talk.”).
At this moment I’m debating whether not I will share photos of the work area considering that it’s still a mess. Some things are where they belong and others are not. Such such as cat litter. Does cat litter belong in my work space? Of course not, but chronic disorganization is the way in which I roll, people. There is no hope for me. Not even the cute Canuck professional organizer with the hot voice can save me (Hellen Buttigieg…look her up and agree with me! Her first name is spelled with 2 “L”s. It would be nearly impossible for her to not be attractive!).
Tomorrow I’m leading an Arts and Crafts class at a local nursing home. I know what you’re thinking: “They’re going to let the nude-loving-disemboweled-viscera-drawing-unstable It near sweet, delicate old people?” Yes. Yes, they are. Keep in mind, however, that along with art, macabre weirdness, words, and anatomy, another favorite thing of mine is chilling with the elderly, yo. I love it. It’s preferable to clubbing or…I don’t know- whatever other activities involve very little shiny clothing and large amounts of alcohol. That’s enjoyable too, but…different.
Before I continue going on and on about nothing, I’m going to affix some pics! The last one is the Dali door! My front door is in need of repair, so while I wait, I figured I would do some decorating.
Heavens to Murgatroyd, I suck! As the title clearly states, I (It) have not been doing art. Unless packing and hauling ass across the state and then sort of unpacking/tearing my hair out counts as art (it might…subjective and all that).
December 14th was my last post. Far, far too long. Unfortunately, I have nothing to visually offer because I thought it was a brilliant idea to do a system recovery on the Hot Bastard (my old beast of a laptop), so I have nothing on here right now. No offerings. My apologies.
I hope everyone has had a splendid New Year, though. And I will be updating this bad boy very soon. Perhaps with photos of my new work area (spoiler alert: it’s a dining room)!
If you have anything to tell me, do it!